So its true. did you know that eric is still alive? I haven’t blogged in almost 5 months!!! I’ve never been so bad. I’m afraid that life has been very busy. I guess the degree to which you want to be busy is often how busy you will be. It seemed like summer would be less chaotic. Suppose it was. Not really sure.
Seems like these past few months were marked with a desire to understand life. Now that’s vague. how about that? No but really, trying to understand where God would want me over the next few years. There has been a good deal of thought on what exactly God had me at Biola for. What he has me in so cal for. What he has me still in school for. What my job is doing right now. What I need to be doing. Lots of that. I might add a small commentary to the whole book of life that is being summarized: trust God for the big things in life too.
Getting hungry
I’m getting fat. no not literally. but just lazy in life. or I was. I’m fighting it. I realize that over the past year or so.. I haven’t read much. and its causing my desire to grow, and my hunger for maturity in christ to struggle. its been good over the past few months to dig into a few good books, and even finish off a few from ... gosh last year. For some reason life just seems ‘better’ with some challenging books.
So hungry,
So thirsty for
that which satisfies.
This world’s full of broken cisterns
that have left me dry.
There’s only one place where
I’m to find what you made me for.
There’s only one true fountain
that satisfies my soul.
Only you
you’re the fountain of living water
Only you satisfy my soul
You’re the source of eternal pleasure
Only you satisfy my soul
-Zach jones
Greek, oh how I love you
Well guess what, I passed first year greek! Ya! with A’s too. w00t. I nearly didn’t make it. but God was gracious. I also might add I really began to appreciate hebrew and its awesomeness, over greek. call me crazy. I can tell you that even as I’m typing this, I need to sit down and review my notecards..... man another 3 or 4 semesters to look forward to. ya!
Oh and fun thing, the greek prof e-mailed the class and reminded us that we will be having a cumulative test on Sept 8th. Oh please come back Lord before then.... please. I’m not read for that test. yikes! I just went over my notecards earlier today. talk about terrible. and then the paradigms. oh dear. oh dear.
study time.
Cubicle portability act
I never realized until last week how many nuts, bolts, screws, tabs and panels there are in cubicles. wow. there full of all sorts of parts! i was shocked. I got the ‘opportunity’ to move desks, and also got the ‘opportunity’ to move my own. note to self, do not move cubicles, its harder than it looks. and seriously whoever invented cubicles should be shot. what a terrible invention. I mean I get the point that they’re better than an open bullpen of desks, but really... cubicles? oiye.
Stupid materialism and all its fun problems
So I’ll make the confession. I bought the iPhone 3GS. yikes. expensive phone, and now my wireless bill is way higher. was it worth it? what a dangerous and scary question. Probably not, but I’m a fool for apple products. Speaking of apple products. Oh I bought a macbook pro 13“. you know that one with the crazy 7 hour battery. I justified it by selling my old black 13” to my parents. Huzzaah. Either way, neato little lappy. I used the excuse that I ‘needed’ it for school so that I could get through successive classes w/o a power adapter. I’m thinking the excuse was a bit overdone, but the laptop is really sweet. and compared to a computer that was really old (sarcasm, it was like 3 years old).. anyway.
All that to say, I’m realizing as I look around me how easy it is for me to get into a rut of enjoying ‘new’ things. Dangerous habit. not recommend.
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don't make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don't want to deal with that
-relient K
No really, a vacation?
No joke. I’m really taking a vacation. for the first time in basically 2 years. I really need to do that more often. I’m starting to lose some sanity. (some of you reading may argue that I have less of it progressively anyway.. haha) I’m really looking forward to turning off my cell phone and just getting away from the business that every week at church produces. seems there are so many things that I do that it just turns into .. blah. I’m not 100% sure where I’m going but as of right now my primary destination seems to be a campsite without cell reception. We’ll see how that works, but its really hard to say. I suppose I’ll post the pictures to facebook.
I’ve taken off so little time that my vacation time at work is almost capping off. Its sad. I even missed important events of family and friends because of having to work. I really need to reconsider how I am spending my time at work, and how I am spending my time off. I suppose I will as life goes on..
Making promises are dangerous
I’m not going to be so rash as to make you a promise that I will update more often. I sure would like to. and 5 months is just plain bad. I never meant it to be that long. Its just that every time I would sit down to write it, I would feel so overwhelmed as to what to say about all of the past months that I didn’t write. There has just been too much over this past month to even mention: camp compass (a.k.a. vbs), Resolved conference, the college ministry’s welcome party, a huge expansion in the tech teams responsibility by producing a weekly video venue, a continued search for worship leader, moving my grandma into a retirement home, my dad still living in china, actually getting my mom to figure out how to use a computer, trying to figure out the seeming paradox between repentance and progressive sanctification, taping my car together with gaffers tape so that it wouldnt fall apart, being more confused by girls than ever, greek, feeling guilty about getting lax on hebrew, realizing i need to continue to find places to preach and practice, wondering about a new ministry for the fall that would focus on evangelism, finding that sleep can be had in excess and that it is not a good thing and often produces headaches and should be avoided, that the best lessons in life are not learned in class, that summer classes that are monday thru friday 8am till noon for two weeks are extremely hard and that waking up for the monday of the second week is possibly the hardest thing, that taking a field trip sometimes means going to america’s largest cemetery, that making people happy can be a double edged sword that can come back to hurt you, that Christ is still the sacrifice for all my sins... and probably a million other little things that have happened over the past 5 months. So possibly you will hear from me sooner?
we will see
-esquared
