Hey everybody, it’s been a few weeks ok, just kidding months. I have put a few blogs to pen, but none of them have seen the light of day. many apologies. It’s been a fun past 5 months since you’ve all heard from me last. but why talk about that; you want to hear what I’ve been thinking about and what’s been going on. At least that’s the theory of blogging.....
A New Way to Commute
On my way from Talbot to Work, I drive down the 5 Southbound. Pretty mundane. Lots of ipod listening, to music or sermons. Pandora’s awesome too. But recently I’ve been looking off to the left during the drive. Because on the way down the 5, there this church. They’ve got this huge red banner. It’s massive. Its only got like 3 words on it. And it gets me thinking when I drive past it. It simply says this “God is Love”.
Now, it get’s me wondering: Is that an attempt to witness to people... like did the leaders in the church say, ‘man we just can’t seem to get the word out enough, let’s go and get a huge sign’? Or was it just an attribute of God that they decided would be easy, to get people to relate to?
It just get’s me wondering what their definition of love is.
Really now, pause. Take a second, think about your day. Now zoom back from all the stuff that went on today. and now Picture a guy. Got him? yup. ok. well here’s the deal. He’s having the worst day. Ever.
This guy is standing there getting killed, helpless. And its my fault. really. He’s hanging off some shabby splintery wood. And its my fault. He’s calling out in pain, agony, just wanting God to take fellowship with him again. Wishing that his Father would look on him. All because God was angry about my sin. And was pouring out his wrath on his son. So that I didn’t have to pay.
Now. snap back to me on the freeway. Driving past a sign. “God is Love”. Hmmm. Maybe churches has no clue how to explain this love.
savior i come, quiet my soul
remember. redemptions hill
where your blood was spilled for my ransom
and everything i once held dear, i count it all as loss
lead me to the cross
Where Your Love Poured Out
bring me to my knees
lord i lay me down.
The Gospel wears shoes
It’s been a crazy semester. I’m taking a field education class, and one of the things that they want you to get involved with is evangelism. And to be honest the first time I read the requirements, I was like ‘oh man, how am I gonna get out of this one?’. Terrible I know.
Then I realized I had an opportunity to do exactly that, to go out and do street evangelism at UCI. I prayed about it for a good week. I asked God if there was anything else. I kept thinking maybe somehow getting the gospel out could be done another way. Surely God didn’t want me to go out and talk to people. That would just be silly. crazy even. zealotry or something.
But the more I kept in prayer, the more I realized how selfish I was being. And then I kept seeing my sin and how it was covered. covered. and I kept asking God to wash away and purify and sanctify me. And then God came in and reminded me that his love and mercy was going to extend beyond me. Because it wasn’t just about me. It was about him. It is about him, and the world. his mercy applied to his elect during all the ages. It’s about giving his Son’s sacrifice, an even greater amount of glory for every generation.
And like fuel on a fire, my heart became something that realized I could be blessed enough to share that same mercy to someone else who has yet to find it. What a strange conviction I realized that rain or shine, sickness or bad parking, I needed to seek people out.
that was a mindset shifter. grabbed my brain. wretched my heart. now it’s terrible. i walk into a starbucks. or a store. And the thing that makes me want to open my mouth and talk has shifted. Yet it’s so hard to actually do it. and it’s even worse talk to those I know.
Do you know what I mean? It’s hard. You see people looking over at you, wondering if you’re about ready to call them a sinner, tell them to repent and that they’re going to hell. It’s as if they know what you’re going to say. but they don’t know the whole picture!
I’ve had several conversations this past semester out at UCI with people, and the overwhelming response has been, to those who listen, that they’re glad to hear the gospel. almost as if it seems like something that makes sense. And that if Christ really did die, then yea, they could see why you would need to repent and believe. It’s just crazy. People are so locked up in their misconceptions of what christians are. and misconceptions of what Christ is about. Dang it, the gospel needs shoes. People who will go out there and just be normal people, who are passionately sold out for the message of the gospel, because Christ has the power to save.
that’d be novel. almost as if some bible verse commands it..
Everyone needs compassion
a love that’s never failing
let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
the kindness of a savior
the hope of nations
savior
he can move the mountains
my God is mighty to save
he is mighty to save
You’ll miss it when it’s Gone
I take things for granted in life and so do you. Really, we just can’t go through life appreciating all we have, and really letting it all sink in. So when we lose something, it becomes painful. I really does. Now mind you this. I’ve been working a job as a tech at my church. I really have taken for granted the building. the place to put gear. the hours of work it takes to set it all up.
and now we’ve started up a new church on campus at UCI. it’s really awesome don’t get me wrong. I love being able to schedule the rooms, and do some of the logistics for setting things up. But oh man. Do I miss having a church with a door. that you can lock, and just walk away from. It’s such a huge blessing to have a home-base for ministry. what a huge help it is to not have to worry about all the things that can go wrong, when you’re miles away from any backup equipment. how spoiled i have become.
and then we read about how believers in the earliest churches met in houses. like you know, without cd recorders, and bands, and speakers. oh man, that’d just be awesome. but thank God for the blessing of having the ability to meet in rooms like the student center at a secular college!
Blasting Out the next few weeks
Well I need to get off to sleep here soon. this past few weeks have been nuts. a few good sized projects at work, and at class, and then in ministry. just overall too much to write about. so with that, i anxiously await the break that will soon be near. as class draws to the end for the semester, I plan on writing again. but these are just a few of the thoughts that have been going through my head. it’s been so busy, honestly though, that this is not nearly reflective enough of what is going on. I’m constantly reminded of the areas that I fall short of God’s son, and where I yet again have to rely on his spirit to give me strength to live. may the next few days until I write next be marked by living in him and his power. that’s be something to look forward to...
-esquared
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
2009 should get a speeding ticket for going by that fast
It’s hopeless
Okay, maybe its not hopeless. But after much *ahem* encouragement from sarachan, I am reminded that my blogging is hopelessly delinquent. And I’d blame lack of good ideas, lack of time, lack of sleep, or perhaps too much to do, too much this or that. But that’s really not the problem. I selfishly want you to think I’m a better person than I am, so me not blogging makes you really think nothing of me, which is confusingly sometimes better than something of me.
That confusing paragraph aside, its been a long time since life has been noted online. Last time I blogged was way back before fall semester. oh, where do I begin...
I’m not dead yet
My M.Div degree at Biola/Talbot, seems to be shouting this phrase [I’m not dead yet] as a war cry. Its been a tough battle, and I’m not sure that anything else beyond grace allowed me to pass all my classes [and still keep a 3.8 gpa!] this semester while working. 8 units plus a zero unit class, plus work, plus ministry.. and it’s just been plain busy. Perhaps it was good, but I must admit that January [my month off] is by far my favorite so far. Its been a good time to reflect and think about the future of where I might find myself in ministry to others.
I admit it has been hard to find good preparation for ministry at talbot. I think overall there have been good things over the past year and a half. I don’t want to discount it entirely as some might. But to be certain the purpose that I had in pursing this degree has been lost a bit in the mud of what the school is actually about. So that aside, if that made no sense please skip to the next paragraph and forget my rambling.
Your car’s roof has such shiny lights on it, Officer
Those words have yet to escape my lips, but even as I drove home tonight [driving a christian 2-3 miles over the speed limit, at most] I found myself being followed by a faithful officer of the law ready and able to grant my new Mazda3 hatchback a speeding ticket. Its been an issue of some time that my civic is getting to the age to go out to pasture. And what better christmas present to me, than a new car? See, I knew you thought the same way I did! Yea, I admit it was a bit more than I probably needed, but it was used and at a good price. And it will faithfully, keep me at the speed limit, and driving down the road for many years to come. Lets hope the extra 80 horsepower of engine [vs my civic] doesn’t produce gross amounts of sin.
Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God. - Rom. 13:1
Counting up a few costs
It’s easy to say that the future will be busy. Or even that it will be gloomy. But it seems that the work ahead, both in school, ministry and work, are all hard roads ahead. I anxiously await the challenges of this next semester. It think that God will provide growth for my soul, and provide me with practical lessons in my faith during this time. But right now it feels like sitting on the porch of my house in florida [back when I was 10] and waiting for Hurricane Andrew to roll in. Too much to think about; almost distracts me from the chaos that is about to hit.
And its going to be a great semester. I’m looking forward to getting the gospel into an otherwise dark community here in orange county. God willing more will follow on this. right now, pray that God would open up doors for ministry.
Christmas Isn’t christmas without chaos, or birthday cake
I mean really now. Its always chaotic. Even the year of Christ’s birth there was no room in the inn. Just too much going on, if you ask me. No but really, it was a busy christmas. Between a hundred [yea, 100] person choir, and finals and final projects... it was a busy few weeks. Stack on that my dad being back in town from China, my grandmother moving to a different retirement home, and plenty of the usual christmas decoration traditions, and you’ve got an awesome recipe for stress. It’s funny that whenever I’m really stressed out my right eye has a vein or something that pops, because I get a bloodshot eye for a good week. And strangely enough this year it didn’t happen till after christmas was over. Guess the end of the year was more stressful than Christmas. .. Who’da thought?
All that to say, it was a odd past few months. Sure there was chaos. But even Thanksgiving/My birthday [the same day this year] was odd. It was odd because my family was all sick, and the whole day basically entailed me picking up food for thanksgiving dinner, and then trying to help others back to health. Odd way to spend the holidays, and certainly not the stereotypical ‘thanksgiving dinner’ that everyone sees in the movies. It was funny though because my birthday cake actually got eaten for christmas [it was an ice cream cake, frozen in the freezer] and we got to eat it on Christmas day. I guess I just celebrated my birthday with Christ this year, instead of on thanksgiving. hey, it works, right...
Sleep affects the general ability of my brain to reason
I think its taken a few years to figure this one out. But here it goes: If you get more sleep, you’re less likely to be in a bad mood, and more likely to be more productive in the hours that you’re awake.
I know, crazy talk right? Caffeine all the way, right? Well this past semester I can proudly say that I survived without any all nighters. There were a couple close nights, where it got close, but I managed to plan somewhat well. that’s quite exciting. I think I’ll try to do it again this next semester.
And as a matter of fact, I’m going to go to bed right now. Perhaps you’ll hear some words from me in the next month before class starts back up? Perhaps you’ll hear of some exciting news in my life? Perhaps you’ll hear about some exciting new, something? Who knows... who knows.
night journal
-eric
Okay, maybe its not hopeless. But after much *ahem* encouragement from sarachan, I am reminded that my blogging is hopelessly delinquent. And I’d blame lack of good ideas, lack of time, lack of sleep, or perhaps too much to do, too much this or that. But that’s really not the problem. I selfishly want you to think I’m a better person than I am, so me not blogging makes you really think nothing of me, which is confusingly sometimes better than something of me.
That confusing paragraph aside, its been a long time since life has been noted online. Last time I blogged was way back before fall semester. oh, where do I begin...
when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
your the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
i find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on
-fee
I’m not dead yet
My M.Div degree at Biola/Talbot, seems to be shouting this phrase [I’m not dead yet] as a war cry. Its been a tough battle, and I’m not sure that anything else beyond grace allowed me to pass all my classes [and still keep a 3.8 gpa!] this semester while working. 8 units plus a zero unit class, plus work, plus ministry.. and it’s just been plain busy. Perhaps it was good, but I must admit that January [my month off] is by far my favorite so far. Its been a good time to reflect and think about the future of where I might find myself in ministry to others.
I admit it has been hard to find good preparation for ministry at talbot. I think overall there have been good things over the past year and a half. I don’t want to discount it entirely as some might. But to be certain the purpose that I had in pursing this degree has been lost a bit in the mud of what the school is actually about. So that aside, if that made no sense please skip to the next paragraph and forget my rambling.
Your car’s roof has such shiny lights on it, Officer
Those words have yet to escape my lips, but even as I drove home tonight [driving a christian 2-3 miles over the speed limit, at most] I found myself being followed by a faithful officer of the law ready and able to grant my new Mazda3 hatchback a speeding ticket. Its been an issue of some time that my civic is getting to the age to go out to pasture. And what better christmas present to me, than a new car? See, I knew you thought the same way I did! Yea, I admit it was a bit more than I probably needed, but it was used and at a good price. And it will faithfully, keep me at the speed limit, and driving down the road for many years to come. Lets hope the extra 80 horsepower of engine [vs my civic] doesn’t produce gross amounts of sin.
Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God. - Rom. 13:1
Counting up a few costs
I’ve been watching the skies
They’ve been turning blood red
Not a doubt in my mind anymore
There’s a storm up ahead
Hello Hurricane
You’re not enough
-switchfoot
It’s easy to say that the future will be busy. Or even that it will be gloomy. But it seems that the work ahead, both in school, ministry and work, are all hard roads ahead. I anxiously await the challenges of this next semester. It think that God will provide growth for my soul, and provide me with practical lessons in my faith during this time. But right now it feels like sitting on the porch of my house in florida [back when I was 10] and waiting for Hurricane Andrew to roll in. Too much to think about; almost distracts me from the chaos that is about to hit.
And its going to be a great semester. I’m looking forward to getting the gospel into an otherwise dark community here in orange county. God willing more will follow on this. right now, pray that God would open up doors for ministry.
I wanna be your hands and feet
I wanna be your voice every time I speak
I wanna run to the ones in need, in the name of Jesus
I wanna give my life away, all for your kingdom’s sake
Shine a light in the darkest place, in the name of Jesus
In the name of Jesus
-fee
Christmas Isn’t christmas without chaos, or birthday cake
I mean really now. Its always chaotic. Even the year of Christ’s birth there was no room in the inn. Just too much going on, if you ask me. No but really, it was a busy christmas. Between a hundred [yea, 100] person choir, and finals and final projects... it was a busy few weeks. Stack on that my dad being back in town from China, my grandmother moving to a different retirement home, and plenty of the usual christmas decoration traditions, and you’ve got an awesome recipe for stress. It’s funny that whenever I’m really stressed out my right eye has a vein or something that pops, because I get a bloodshot eye for a good week. And strangely enough this year it didn’t happen till after christmas was over. Guess the end of the year was more stressful than Christmas. .. Who’da thought?
All that to say, it was a odd past few months. Sure there was chaos. But even Thanksgiving/My birthday [the same day this year] was odd. It was odd because my family was all sick, and the whole day basically entailed me picking up food for thanksgiving dinner, and then trying to help others back to health. Odd way to spend the holidays, and certainly not the stereotypical ‘thanksgiving dinner’ that everyone sees in the movies. It was funny though because my birthday cake actually got eaten for christmas [it was an ice cream cake, frozen in the freezer] and we got to eat it on Christmas day. I guess I just celebrated my birthday with Christ this year, instead of on thanksgiving. hey, it works, right...
Sleep affects the general ability of my brain to reason
I think its taken a few years to figure this one out. But here it goes: If you get more sleep, you’re less likely to be in a bad mood, and more likely to be more productive in the hours that you’re awake.
I know, crazy talk right? Caffeine all the way, right? Well this past semester I can proudly say that I survived without any all nighters. There were a couple close nights, where it got close, but I managed to plan somewhat well. that’s quite exciting. I think I’ll try to do it again this next semester.
And as a matter of fact, I’m going to go to bed right now. Perhaps you’ll hear some words from me in the next month before class starts back up? Perhaps you’ll hear of some exciting news in my life? Perhaps you’ll hear about some exciting new, something? Who knows... who knows.
night journal
-eric
Monday, August 10, 2009
Don't tell anyone... but I'm still alive
Its true that time “fly’s”. the whole having fun part is optional, and they forgot to mention that...
So its true. did you know that eric is still alive? I haven’t blogged in almost 5 months!!! I’ve never been so bad. I’m afraid that life has been very busy. I guess the degree to which you want to be busy is often how busy you will be. It seemed like summer would be less chaotic. Suppose it was. Not really sure.
Seems like these past few months were marked with a desire to understand life. Now that’s vague. how about that? No but really, trying to understand where God would want me over the next few years. There has been a good deal of thought on what exactly God had me at Biola for. What he has me in so cal for. What he has me still in school for. What my job is doing right now. What I need to be doing. Lots of that. I might add a small commentary to the whole book of life that is being summarized: trust God for the big things in life too.
Getting hungry
I’m getting fat. no not literally. but just lazy in life. or I was. I’m fighting it. I realize that over the past year or so.. I haven’t read much. and its causing my desire to grow, and my hunger for maturity in christ to struggle. its been good over the past few months to dig into a few good books, and even finish off a few from ... gosh last year. For some reason life just seems ‘better’ with some challenging books.
Greek, oh how I love you
Well guess what, I passed first year greek! Ya! with A’s too. w00t. I nearly didn’t make it. but God was gracious. I also might add I really began to appreciate hebrew and its awesomeness, over greek. call me crazy. I can tell you that even as I’m typing this, I need to sit down and review my notecards..... man another 3 or 4 semesters to look forward to. ya!
Oh and fun thing, the greek prof e-mailed the class and reminded us that we will be having a cumulative test on Sept 8th. Oh please come back Lord before then.... please. I’m not read for that test. yikes! I just went over my notecards earlier today. talk about terrible. and then the paradigms. oh dear. oh dear.
study time.
Cubicle portability act
I never realized until last week how many nuts, bolts, screws, tabs and panels there are in cubicles. wow. there full of all sorts of parts! i was shocked. I got the ‘opportunity’ to move desks, and also got the ‘opportunity’ to move my own. note to self, do not move cubicles, its harder than it looks. and seriously whoever invented cubicles should be shot. what a terrible invention. I mean I get the point that they’re better than an open bullpen of desks, but really... cubicles? oiye.
Stupid materialism and all its fun problems
So I’ll make the confession. I bought the iPhone 3GS. yikes. expensive phone, and now my wireless bill is way higher. was it worth it? what a dangerous and scary question. Probably not, but I’m a fool for apple products. Speaking of apple products. Oh I bought a macbook pro 13“. you know that one with the crazy 7 hour battery. I justified it by selling my old black 13” to my parents. Huzzaah. Either way, neato little lappy. I used the excuse that I ‘needed’ it for school so that I could get through successive classes w/o a power adapter. I’m thinking the excuse was a bit overdone, but the laptop is really sweet. and compared to a computer that was really old (sarcasm, it was like 3 years old).. anyway.
All that to say, I’m realizing as I look around me how easy it is for me to get into a rut of enjoying ‘new’ things. Dangerous habit. not recommend.
No really, a vacation?
No joke. I’m really taking a vacation. for the first time in basically 2 years. I really need to do that more often. I’m starting to lose some sanity. (some of you reading may argue that I have less of it progressively anyway.. haha) I’m really looking forward to turning off my cell phone and just getting away from the business that every week at church produces. seems there are so many things that I do that it just turns into .. blah. I’m not 100% sure where I’m going but as of right now my primary destination seems to be a campsite without cell reception. We’ll see how that works, but its really hard to say. I suppose I’ll post the pictures to facebook.
I’ve taken off so little time that my vacation time at work is almost capping off. Its sad. I even missed important events of family and friends because of having to work. I really need to reconsider how I am spending my time at work, and how I am spending my time off. I suppose I will as life goes on..
Making promises are dangerous
I’m not going to be so rash as to make you a promise that I will update more often. I sure would like to. and 5 months is just plain bad. I never meant it to be that long. Its just that every time I would sit down to write it, I would feel so overwhelmed as to what to say about all of the past months that I didn’t write. There has just been too much over this past month to even mention: camp compass (a.k.a. vbs), Resolved conference, the college ministry’s welcome party, a huge expansion in the tech teams responsibility by producing a weekly video venue, a continued search for worship leader, moving my grandma into a retirement home, my dad still living in china, actually getting my mom to figure out how to use a computer, trying to figure out the seeming paradox between repentance and progressive sanctification, taping my car together with gaffers tape so that it wouldnt fall apart, being more confused by girls than ever, greek, feeling guilty about getting lax on hebrew, realizing i need to continue to find places to preach and practice, wondering about a new ministry for the fall that would focus on evangelism, finding that sleep can be had in excess and that it is not a good thing and often produces headaches and should be avoided, that the best lessons in life are not learned in class, that summer classes that are monday thru friday 8am till noon for two weeks are extremely hard and that waking up for the monday of the second week is possibly the hardest thing, that taking a field trip sometimes means going to america’s largest cemetery, that making people happy can be a double edged sword that can come back to hurt you, that Christ is still the sacrifice for all my sins... and probably a million other little things that have happened over the past 5 months. So possibly you will hear from me sooner?
we will see
-esquared
So its true. did you know that eric is still alive? I haven’t blogged in almost 5 months!!! I’ve never been so bad. I’m afraid that life has been very busy. I guess the degree to which you want to be busy is often how busy you will be. It seemed like summer would be less chaotic. Suppose it was. Not really sure.
Seems like these past few months were marked with a desire to understand life. Now that’s vague. how about that? No but really, trying to understand where God would want me over the next few years. There has been a good deal of thought on what exactly God had me at Biola for. What he has me in so cal for. What he has me still in school for. What my job is doing right now. What I need to be doing. Lots of that. I might add a small commentary to the whole book of life that is being summarized: trust God for the big things in life too.
Getting hungry
I’m getting fat. no not literally. but just lazy in life. or I was. I’m fighting it. I realize that over the past year or so.. I haven’t read much. and its causing my desire to grow, and my hunger for maturity in christ to struggle. its been good over the past few months to dig into a few good books, and even finish off a few from ... gosh last year. For some reason life just seems ‘better’ with some challenging books.
So hungry,
So thirsty for
that which satisfies.
This world’s full of broken cisterns
that have left me dry.
There’s only one place where
I’m to find what you made me for.
There’s only one true fountain
that satisfies my soul.
Only you
you’re the fountain of living water
Only you satisfy my soul
You’re the source of eternal pleasure
Only you satisfy my soul
-Zach jones
Greek, oh how I love you
Well guess what, I passed first year greek! Ya! with A’s too. w00t. I nearly didn’t make it. but God was gracious. I also might add I really began to appreciate hebrew and its awesomeness, over greek. call me crazy. I can tell you that even as I’m typing this, I need to sit down and review my notecards..... man another 3 or 4 semesters to look forward to. ya!
Oh and fun thing, the greek prof e-mailed the class and reminded us that we will be having a cumulative test on Sept 8th. Oh please come back Lord before then.... please. I’m not read for that test. yikes! I just went over my notecards earlier today. talk about terrible. and then the paradigms. oh dear. oh dear.
study time.
Cubicle portability act
I never realized until last week how many nuts, bolts, screws, tabs and panels there are in cubicles. wow. there full of all sorts of parts! i was shocked. I got the ‘opportunity’ to move desks, and also got the ‘opportunity’ to move my own. note to self, do not move cubicles, its harder than it looks. and seriously whoever invented cubicles should be shot. what a terrible invention. I mean I get the point that they’re better than an open bullpen of desks, but really... cubicles? oiye.
Stupid materialism and all its fun problems
So I’ll make the confession. I bought the iPhone 3GS. yikes. expensive phone, and now my wireless bill is way higher. was it worth it? what a dangerous and scary question. Probably not, but I’m a fool for apple products. Speaking of apple products. Oh I bought a macbook pro 13“. you know that one with the crazy 7 hour battery. I justified it by selling my old black 13” to my parents. Huzzaah. Either way, neato little lappy. I used the excuse that I ‘needed’ it for school so that I could get through successive classes w/o a power adapter. I’m thinking the excuse was a bit overdone, but the laptop is really sweet. and compared to a computer that was really old (sarcasm, it was like 3 years old).. anyway.
All that to say, I’m realizing as I look around me how easy it is for me to get into a rut of enjoying ‘new’ things. Dangerous habit. not recommend.
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don't make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don't want to deal with that
-relient K
No really, a vacation?
No joke. I’m really taking a vacation. for the first time in basically 2 years. I really need to do that more often. I’m starting to lose some sanity. (some of you reading may argue that I have less of it progressively anyway.. haha) I’m really looking forward to turning off my cell phone and just getting away from the business that every week at church produces. seems there are so many things that I do that it just turns into .. blah. I’m not 100% sure where I’m going but as of right now my primary destination seems to be a campsite without cell reception. We’ll see how that works, but its really hard to say. I suppose I’ll post the pictures to facebook.
I’ve taken off so little time that my vacation time at work is almost capping off. Its sad. I even missed important events of family and friends because of having to work. I really need to reconsider how I am spending my time at work, and how I am spending my time off. I suppose I will as life goes on..
Making promises are dangerous
I’m not going to be so rash as to make you a promise that I will update more often. I sure would like to. and 5 months is just plain bad. I never meant it to be that long. Its just that every time I would sit down to write it, I would feel so overwhelmed as to what to say about all of the past months that I didn’t write. There has just been too much over this past month to even mention: camp compass (a.k.a. vbs), Resolved conference, the college ministry’s welcome party, a huge expansion in the tech teams responsibility by producing a weekly video venue, a continued search for worship leader, moving my grandma into a retirement home, my dad still living in china, actually getting my mom to figure out how to use a computer, trying to figure out the seeming paradox between repentance and progressive sanctification, taping my car together with gaffers tape so that it wouldnt fall apart, being more confused by girls than ever, greek, feeling guilty about getting lax on hebrew, realizing i need to continue to find places to preach and practice, wondering about a new ministry for the fall that would focus on evangelism, finding that sleep can be had in excess and that it is not a good thing and often produces headaches and should be avoided, that the best lessons in life are not learned in class, that summer classes that are monday thru friday 8am till noon for two weeks are extremely hard and that waking up for the monday of the second week is possibly the hardest thing, that taking a field trip sometimes means going to america’s largest cemetery, that making people happy can be a double edged sword that can come back to hurt you, that Christ is still the sacrifice for all my sins... and probably a million other little things that have happened over the past 5 months. So possibly you will hear from me sooner?
we will see
-esquared
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Midterms, transitions, March and deep thoughts
A month’s worth of thoughts
Perhaps a rather odd feeling reminded me to blog. Perhaps that feeling is the nag of unfinished homework from school. But the feeling that I haven’t written in a month, also comes to mind. Hopefully nobody went crazy over the past month without an update. right? good.
It’s odd to think that its already march. I can’t hardly believe it. Even thinking about where I am right now, makes me amazed. So odd to think about not even a year or two ago. I’m glad that God has me where I am right now. Come to think of it, I probably say something like that every blog I do. Maybe that’s annoying to read. oh well!
It seems there have been some large changes around work too. Good ones, I would say, overall. Not without their moments, but overall positive. I’m glad that I have my church body around me; it has been great to take this past month and begin to intentionally develop deeper relationships with others through lunches, and breakfasts, and the like. I think I have been guilty of overlooking the ability to create more community in the church. I have used the excuse of being ‘new’ for far too long to still not be developing quality friendships with others.
Jack started something big
when he showed his kids the way they ought to live
he said “money good” and “money fine”
but ‘wont stand the test of time
Comon’ kids I’ll show you where it’s at
‘aid follow me I’ll show you where it's at
Going to the House of the Lord
I’m goin’ to the House of the Lord
Going to the House of the Lord
To worship God
To worship God
-west coast revival
“Only what’s done for Christ will last...“
Seems that last month was a bit strange indeed. Suppose, I would say that, because a friend passed away and went to be with her Lord. What a great reminder of why we still have breath. After all, we’re breathing because of grace. God knows, that I should be dead because of the wrongs that I have done. Seriously. And frankly, the same is true for you.
But I found myself this past week staffing the memorial service, in and out of tears. And honestly it was for two reasons. The first was simply the grief of losing someone that I knew for 5+ years. But even more so was the grief of knowing that the room was filled, with tons of non-christians; who at the end of the service walked out ignoring the Gospel. It seems reminiscent of Lk. 17:30-31 where the rich man wants to go back and warn people about God’s wrath, by going back in person. But instead Christ tells him, ”If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced, even if someone raises from the dead.“ What a cutting observation, about the hardness of the heart of those who have heard from God! What a miracle salvation must be, if greater things than in this passage must be done to convince a sinner.
So it was good to celebrate a life that has the same passion to save others, indeed, doing what ”will last“. How odd that only in times like this, God’s grace becomes fresh, alive and clear. What a strange thing salvation is. how oddly it advances, and how oddly it is spread.
only one life,
‘twill soon be past;
only what’s done
for Christ will last.
-piper DWYL
Savior, he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
he is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose
and conquered the grave
Jesus, conquered the grave
-Hillsong
Midterms, and paperwork
”Deadlines are closer than they appear“ was aptly observed by someone to remain unnamed. Indeed this must be the case, as in a little less than a week, Greek class is having its first midterm. Perhaps that has spawned on this blog, in an effort to avoid the work associated with studying for the ”A“ (that I’m going to get, don’t worry)..
Aside from Greek class, I’m sorta wondering about Talbot. Now there’s a fun sentence. Hurrah. Well, I’m playing with the idea of transferring. Granted I would have to get accepted to the place that I would like to go, but that’s sorta assumed at this point. I could be crazy but I’m filling out an application to go to TMS (the master’s seminary). I’m not sure another 60 units at Talbot is something I can stomach. So ironically I’m transfering to somewhere where I’ll likely start over at 98 units. But the only upshot is that I’ll likely break even fiscally. And if I can spend the same amount of money, and get a better, more practical education.. well its worth considering. I’m not in a pastoral role right now, and I’m not married, so I still have some time to hike the extra 30-40 miles.
I suppose this all won’t change till at least summer, so they’ll be plenty more dramatic drawn out decisions, spanning blogs upon blogs. I’m anxious to find out if there is really someplace better out there to learn how to teach and disciple others. Seem the direction of talbot isn’t as such, at least from my impression. Hopefully nobody tries to kill me for saying that...
I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go, send me
Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change
-Leeland
Practical time management
I should get back to homework. but first dinner... catch you in the next episode
Perhaps a rather odd feeling reminded me to blog. Perhaps that feeling is the nag of unfinished homework from school. But the feeling that I haven’t written in a month, also comes to mind. Hopefully nobody went crazy over the past month without an update. right? good.
It’s odd to think that its already march. I can’t hardly believe it. Even thinking about where I am right now, makes me amazed. So odd to think about not even a year or two ago. I’m glad that God has me where I am right now. Come to think of it, I probably say something like that every blog I do. Maybe that’s annoying to read. oh well!
It seems there have been some large changes around work too. Good ones, I would say, overall. Not without their moments, but overall positive. I’m glad that I have my church body around me; it has been great to take this past month and begin to intentionally develop deeper relationships with others through lunches, and breakfasts, and the like. I think I have been guilty of overlooking the ability to create more community in the church. I have used the excuse of being ‘new’ for far too long to still not be developing quality friendships with others.
Jack started something big
when he showed his kids the way they ought to live
he said “money good” and “money fine”
but ‘wont stand the test of time
Comon’ kids I’ll show you where it’s at
‘aid follow me I’ll show you where it's at
Going to the House of the Lord
I’m goin’ to the House of the Lord
Going to the House of the Lord
To worship God
To worship God
-west coast revival
“Only what’s done for Christ will last...“
Seems that last month was a bit strange indeed. Suppose, I would say that, because a friend passed away and went to be with her Lord. What a great reminder of why we still have breath. After all, we’re breathing because of grace. God knows, that I should be dead because of the wrongs that I have done. Seriously. And frankly, the same is true for you.
But I found myself this past week staffing the memorial service, in and out of tears. And honestly it was for two reasons. The first was simply the grief of losing someone that I knew for 5+ years. But even more so was the grief of knowing that the room was filled, with tons of non-christians; who at the end of the service walked out ignoring the Gospel. It seems reminiscent of Lk. 17:30-31 where the rich man wants to go back and warn people about God’s wrath, by going back in person. But instead Christ tells him, ”If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced, even if someone raises from the dead.“ What a cutting observation, about the hardness of the heart of those who have heard from God! What a miracle salvation must be, if greater things than in this passage must be done to convince a sinner.
So it was good to celebrate a life that has the same passion to save others, indeed, doing what ”will last“. How odd that only in times like this, God’s grace becomes fresh, alive and clear. What a strange thing salvation is. how oddly it advances, and how oddly it is spread.
only one life,
‘twill soon be past;
only what’s done
for Christ will last.
-piper DWYL
Savior, he can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
he is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose
and conquered the grave
Jesus, conquered the grave
-Hillsong
Midterms, and paperwork
”Deadlines are closer than they appear“ was aptly observed by someone to remain unnamed. Indeed this must be the case, as in a little less than a week, Greek class is having its first midterm. Perhaps that has spawned on this blog, in an effort to avoid the work associated with studying for the ”A“ (that I’m going to get, don’t worry)..
Aside from Greek class, I’m sorta wondering about Talbot. Now there’s a fun sentence. Hurrah. Well, I’m playing with the idea of transferring. Granted I would have to get accepted to the place that I would like to go, but that’s sorta assumed at this point. I could be crazy but I’m filling out an application to go to TMS (the master’s seminary). I’m not sure another 60 units at Talbot is something I can stomach. So ironically I’m transfering to somewhere where I’ll likely start over at 98 units. But the only upshot is that I’ll likely break even fiscally. And if I can spend the same amount of money, and get a better, more practical education.. well its worth considering. I’m not in a pastoral role right now, and I’m not married, so I still have some time to hike the extra 30-40 miles.
I suppose this all won’t change till at least summer, so they’ll be plenty more dramatic drawn out decisions, spanning blogs upon blogs. I’m anxious to find out if there is really someplace better out there to learn how to teach and disciple others. Seem the direction of talbot isn’t as such, at least from my impression. Hopefully nobody tries to kill me for saying that...
I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go, send me
Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change
-Leeland
Practical time management
I should get back to homework. but first dinner... catch you in the next episode
Friday, January 30, 2009
A Racing Stripe for my Honda Civic
Rumors of my death are greatly exaggerated
Perhaps you haven’t noticed, or maybe you did. I can’t tell! Either way I said on December 1st that I would update. And here it is, one of the last days of January and I have still yet to write. Doh!
Between my dad being back for two weeks, crazy Christmas musicals, Christmas Eve services, Finals, and occasional ‘dates’ with my pillow (they were on my iCal sometimes, just so that I would sleep!), it was an insane Christmas of 08’.
I recouped some sanity during January, forgot some greek, and got some sleep. Not bad, but still it did not accomplish any blogging. Not my finest moment, I’ll admit.
I had some fun experiences, with my playdates with death and a 28ft. extension ladder. Mr. Lightbar in the main auditorium was causing me some grief, and to steal a line from steve jobs ‘Rumors of my death are greatly exaggerated’. I wonder how dangerous it actually was, and it wasn’t probably as bad as I thought. meh.
Either way, the semester is back and running. I may as well be dead for the next few months as I slip into the chaotic cycle of driving around, working, going to class, doing homework and doing ministry. I figure I’ll use blogging as an excuse to escape the insanity, so perhaps you might see more updates than you’d expect!
Car Racing (at the speed limit)
I’m figuring that for the next 18-20 weeks I can spend anywhere between $600-700 for gas. Driving. Between San Clemente, and Aliso Viejo, from there to La Mirada, and from there possibly crazy.
I’m telling you. I need a racing stripe on my Honda Civic.
Cause I struggle with foward motion
I struggle with foward motion
We all struggle with foward motion
Cause foward motion is harder than it sounds
Well every time I gain some ground
I gotta turn myself around again
Its harder than it sounds
Well every time I gain some ground
I gotta turn myself around again
-Relient K
Dear Friend:
Dear Xbox360 it has come to my attention that we cannot continue our relationship as planned. I regret to inform you that my feelings for you remain the same, but my lifestyle has changed, and I’m just not the same person I was during winter break. We had some good times, and we go to hang out and get to know each other. We even got to know a bunch of new people through your ability to ‘Rock’ their world.
I’m sorry that things had to end like this, and that you have to see me like this. I’m afraid that it isn’t you that is the problem in this relationship, but it is me. Please forgive me for all of the wrong things I have done to you, like dropping your mic, and throwing your controller. I know I have caused you pain in the past, and do sincerely apologize.
I know that we will still see each other, but it will have to be differently from now on. Also, please stop texting me to hang out. -eric
Okay so that was a joke, but seriously. I’m going to have to be a bit more judicious about my time now. I feel there is a very large battle for time, and things like Rockband will have to fall to the back seat. :(
Curse Thee Vocabulary!
ohmygoodness. where did all of my greek vocab go over winter break. I’m lucky that I remember all 24 versions of the word ‘the’. I feel like I need to be reviewing my vocab right now. As a matter of fact, that’s what I’m going to go back to after I finish this blog.
By the way, why does memorizing vocab always take so long? uughh!!
School, second semester: thoughts.
Well, I’ve mannaged to get into my second semester (the first week granted). I’m happy to be back. I think there is some hope in this semester being productive. Sometimes I wonder about the classes at Talbot. But that’s a different subject entirely. I’m just very glad to be at my church, and to be able to help serve there. I’m planning that this semester I can grow in service even more.
It’s odd to start seeing people from my undergrad degree around campus. I guess its odd since I feel a sense of familiarity and yet my reason for being there has changed some.
I don’t quite know how to explain the feeling of being a grad student. I think I can’t quite describe it because I’m just commuting, and I don’t spend more than a day there each week.
I can say for sure that going into common grounds, and sitting by the fountain sure feel weird. I’m glad there there is a lounge in talbot, because it is sure nice to be there instead. Perhaps that is because it is winter and everyone that is awake is trying to get coffee, and everyone who has a brain isn’t sitting by the fountain where it is freezing. who knows!
If nothing else, I’m certain that I have some good professors, and a few who are a bit crazy. this should be fun. can’t wait!
Well I must leave it at that, and in vain promise something that I can only hope to deliver on. I’d like to say that I might be blogging again in two weeks. Who knows!
-eric
Perhaps you haven’t noticed, or maybe you did. I can’t tell! Either way I said on December 1st that I would update. And here it is, one of the last days of January and I have still yet to write. Doh!
Between my dad being back for two weeks, crazy Christmas musicals, Christmas Eve services, Finals, and occasional ‘dates’ with my pillow (they were on my iCal sometimes, just so that I would sleep!), it was an insane Christmas of 08’.
I recouped some sanity during January, forgot some greek, and got some sleep. Not bad, but still it did not accomplish any blogging. Not my finest moment, I’ll admit.
I had some fun experiences, with my playdates with death and a 28ft. extension ladder. Mr. Lightbar in the main auditorium was causing me some grief, and to steal a line from steve jobs ‘Rumors of my death are greatly exaggerated’. I wonder how dangerous it actually was, and it wasn’t probably as bad as I thought. meh.
Either way, the semester is back and running. I may as well be dead for the next few months as I slip into the chaotic cycle of driving around, working, going to class, doing homework and doing ministry. I figure I’ll use blogging as an excuse to escape the insanity, so perhaps you might see more updates than you’d expect!
Car Racing (at the speed limit)
I’m figuring that for the next 18-20 weeks I can spend anywhere between $600-700 for gas. Driving. Between San Clemente, and Aliso Viejo, from there to La Mirada, and from there possibly crazy.
I’m telling you. I need a racing stripe on my Honda Civic.
Cause I struggle with foward motion
I struggle with foward motion
We all struggle with foward motion
Cause foward motion is harder than it sounds
Well every time I gain some ground
I gotta turn myself around again
Its harder than it sounds
Well every time I gain some ground
I gotta turn myself around again
-Relient K
Dear Friend:
Dear Xbox360 it has come to my attention that we cannot continue our relationship as planned. I regret to inform you that my feelings for you remain the same, but my lifestyle has changed, and I’m just not the same person I was during winter break. We had some good times, and we go to hang out and get to know each other. We even got to know a bunch of new people through your ability to ‘Rock’ their world.
I’m sorry that things had to end like this, and that you have to see me like this. I’m afraid that it isn’t you that is the problem in this relationship, but it is me. Please forgive me for all of the wrong things I have done to you, like dropping your mic, and throwing your controller. I know I have caused you pain in the past, and do sincerely apologize.
I know that we will still see each other, but it will have to be differently from now on. Also, please stop texting me to hang out. -eric
Okay so that was a joke, but seriously. I’m going to have to be a bit more judicious about my time now. I feel there is a very large battle for time, and things like Rockband will have to fall to the back seat. :(
Curse Thee Vocabulary!
ohmygoodness. where did all of my greek vocab go over winter break. I’m lucky that I remember all 24 versions of the word ‘the’. I feel like I need to be reviewing my vocab right now. As a matter of fact, that’s what I’m going to go back to after I finish this blog.
By the way, why does memorizing vocab always take so long? uughh!!
School, second semester: thoughts.
Well, I’ve mannaged to get into my second semester (the first week granted). I’m happy to be back. I think there is some hope in this semester being productive. Sometimes I wonder about the classes at Talbot. But that’s a different subject entirely. I’m just very glad to be at my church, and to be able to help serve there. I’m planning that this semester I can grow in service even more.
It’s odd to start seeing people from my undergrad degree around campus. I guess its odd since I feel a sense of familiarity and yet my reason for being there has changed some.
I don’t quite know how to explain the feeling of being a grad student. I think I can’t quite describe it because I’m just commuting, and I don’t spend more than a day there each week.
I can say for sure that going into common grounds, and sitting by the fountain sure feel weird. I’m glad there there is a lounge in talbot, because it is sure nice to be there instead. Perhaps that is because it is winter and everyone that is awake is trying to get coffee, and everyone who has a brain isn’t sitting by the fountain where it is freezing. who knows!
If nothing else, I’m certain that I have some good professors, and a few who are a bit crazy. this should be fun. can’t wait!
Well I must leave it at that, and in vain promise something that I can only hope to deliver on. I’d like to say that I might be blogging again in two weeks. Who knows!
-eric
Monday, December 1, 2008
Sometimes you just get stuck in 'the middle'
I’ve felt a small amount of grief at my prior statement in this blog. I promised to update and write a lot more than I have done. Much can be said about why I haven’t written that much. I could probably fill a few pages/books with, perhaps exciting, things. But surely I don’t need to write out or document my life, that’s something God alone knows anyway. I do want to recap some thoughts that have happened recently though. Seems like even admits all of the insanity God still works.
We’re in ‘Now-now, everything you see now, is happening now.’ ‘yes, but when will now be then?’ ‘soon..’
It’s funny how when I started school at Biola, I kept praying for direction. As if going to school wasn’t enough, I wanted a clear sense of why I was going to school to learn about God’s word. And admittedly even by the time I graduated I had no idea. Sadly enough I’m realizing this isn’t all that uncommon. I thought perhaps in the quietness of the biola prayer chapel that I was the only person crazy enough to think about this kind of thing. But surely God has been good to bring me to where I am, and to be merciful enough to bring me back to learn more about him.
It’s crazy to see that God has some direction in my life that he is even now willing to reveal. He’s been good to me by making me think practically about how I am going to use what I am learning, and by being around people who take God’s word seriously and want to see his kingdom advanced. I trust that he will be so gracious as for me to find many more people like this throughout the rest of my time here on this earth.
Sometimes you just get stuck in the middle
With perhaps a large dose of divine humor, I had my birthday song [the first song I sang at 12:03am on my birthday, on rockband :D ] be Jimmy Eat World’s ‘The Middle’. I call it a bit of divine humor because so much of the song feels like where I am now at, being 24. It’s odd to think that so many years have passed since high school, and even then to consider where I am yet to go. Seems a little bit in the middle. Not like midlife crisis in the middle, but more in the sense that I’m not quite where I want to be yet, from where I planned so many years ago. Now to concede that God is putting me exactly where he wants me, is fully true, but either way, much can be said about how things in my life just don’t feel ‘there’ yet.
I’d be the last one to complain, and honestly its been good to be here. I just look forward to a time in my life where I can discover a more effective way to minister to others. Granted I would not want to look down on my current efforts as worthless, far from it. But I seek a greater degree of God’s ability, that has yet to come. So perhaps this is just the middle of the ride
My pillow has been writing me Love Letters telling me it misses the times we used to hang out
I confess, I exaggerate. But I still am sticking to the point that going to school, working full time and trying to have both a ministry and some degree of contact with people.... requires a lack of sleep. Perhaps detrimental to my own health, I have taken on the view that coffee is God’s gift to mankind. Perhaps not. Either way, I miss my pillow, I wish it were closer to me right now as I sit ‘studying’ for my next class. Oh yea and the Christmas Musical for my church is 2 weeks and counting. Go team.
Speaking of the Kid’s Christmas Musical I’m having the rare privilege of installing choir Mic’s that hang from the 18ft high ceiling. Cool huh. yea, more on that soon. I’ll let you know if I break anything. It’s gonna be awesome.
M-kay how about a few weeks and then an update?
In the quite possible case that things might get somewhat less crazy after the 15/16th of this month, I might just have some time to do a legitimate blog. But this one was some stuff that I wrote on my birthday a few days back and then edited some. So take it for what it is, incomplete at best. Either way its some of the thoughts that have been in my head. Expect something else soon, and remember to practice your vocab flash cards before they start piling up and... uhhh, well bite you. not that I did anything like that.... of course not. right?
-eric
We’re in ‘Now-now, everything you see now, is happening now.’ ‘yes, but when will now be then?’ ‘soon..’
It’s funny how when I started school at Biola, I kept praying for direction. As if going to school wasn’t enough, I wanted a clear sense of why I was going to school to learn about God’s word. And admittedly even by the time I graduated I had no idea. Sadly enough I’m realizing this isn’t all that uncommon. I thought perhaps in the quietness of the biola prayer chapel that I was the only person crazy enough to think about this kind of thing. But surely God has been good to bring me to where I am, and to be merciful enough to bring me back to learn more about him.
It’s crazy to see that God has some direction in my life that he is even now willing to reveal. He’s been good to me by making me think practically about how I am going to use what I am learning, and by being around people who take God’s word seriously and want to see his kingdom advanced. I trust that he will be so gracious as for me to find many more people like this throughout the rest of my time here on this earth.
Sometimes you just get stuck in the middle
With perhaps a large dose of divine humor, I had my birthday song [the first song I sang at 12:03am on my birthday, on rockband :D ] be Jimmy Eat World’s ‘The Middle’. I call it a bit of divine humor because so much of the song feels like where I am now at, being 24. It’s odd to think that so many years have passed since high school, and even then to consider where I am yet to go. Seems a little bit in the middle. Not like midlife crisis in the middle, but more in the sense that I’m not quite where I want to be yet, from where I planned so many years ago. Now to concede that God is putting me exactly where he wants me, is fully true, but either way, much can be said about how things in my life just don’t feel ‘there’ yet.
I’d be the last one to complain, and honestly its been good to be here. I just look forward to a time in my life where I can discover a more effective way to minister to others. Granted I would not want to look down on my current efforts as worthless, far from it. But I seek a greater degree of God’s ability, that has yet to come. So perhaps this is just the middle of the ride
Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just try your best, try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away. It just takes some time, little --- you're in the middle, it'll up the ride. Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright. Hey, you know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in. Live right now. Yeah, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else. It just takes some time, little --- you're in the middle of the ride. Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
My pillow has been writing me Love Letters telling me it misses the times we used to hang out
I confess, I exaggerate. But I still am sticking to the point that going to school, working full time and trying to have both a ministry and some degree of contact with people.... requires a lack of sleep. Perhaps detrimental to my own health, I have taken on the view that coffee is God’s gift to mankind. Perhaps not. Either way, I miss my pillow, I wish it were closer to me right now as I sit ‘studying’ for my next class. Oh yea and the Christmas Musical for my church is 2 weeks and counting. Go team.
Speaking of the Kid’s Christmas Musical I’m having the rare privilege of installing choir Mic’s that hang from the 18ft high ceiling. Cool huh. yea, more on that soon. I’ll let you know if I break anything. It’s gonna be awesome.
M-kay how about a few weeks and then an update?
In the quite possible case that things might get somewhat less crazy after the 15/16th of this month, I might just have some time to do a legitimate blog. But this one was some stuff that I wrote on my birthday a few days back and then edited some. So take it for what it is, incomplete at best. Either way its some of the thoughts that have been in my head. Expect something else soon, and remember to practice your vocab flash cards before they start piling up and... uhhh, well bite you. not that I did anything like that.... of course not. right?
-eric
Monday, September 1, 2008
Lather, Rinse, Repeat as Needed
One Real Thing
I'm noticing that it becomes increasingly easy over a very short time, even a month, to fall out of amazement of the love of God. He has provided all [good and 'bad']things, and I often forget.
You are the One Real Thing
You are the One True Thing that I know
You are the One Real Thing
No matter what the future brings
You're the One Real Thing
Stay, locked within Your presence
Truth, renew in my mind again
Rest, cuz I know You're faithful and I
Trust, cuz I know Your name
You are the One True Thing that I know
You are the One Real Thing
No matter what the future brings
You're the One Real Thing
Stay, locked within Your presence
Truth, renew in my mind again
Rest, cuz I know You're faithful and I
Trust, cuz I know Your name
-skillet
Its good to know that in a world that clings to worldly things, I don't have to. It's encouraging to know that a God who never changes is my constant. He's totally powerful, and completely against my sin. So I suppose I should be afraid, and rightfully so. But what a loving God he is, to even create a fix.
If I could only remember it every minute, with out the struggle...
It's greek... run away!
Well I had a horrible thought this past week as I sat in the breezeway by eagles nest; I'm a 'Talbot guy'. The stereotype, like it or not will now follow me around campus. oye.
On the upside I'm really excited to be back in school. I missed it. And I hope that I can excel, as well as, or better than in my undergrad. I'm excited to see how God shapes me through this time, and how he leads me closer to him. I look forward to learning how to preach God's word better, and to be able to shape my education into something that I can use in a practical way.
No one told me
The right way
The right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
Cause how much
Is too much
To give you
Well I may never know
So I'll just give until there's nothing else
Yeah I'll give give give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give
The right way
The right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
Cause how much
Is too much
To give you
Well I may never know
So I'll just give until there's nothing else
Yeah I'll give give give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give
-relient k
So all that to say, I'm in Greek, and Theology III. go team
The day I must have slept through class
They never told me in school that:
"poking someone's eye out" was wrong. I suppose the phrase comes to mind: "its all fun and games until someone pokes their eye out"... and perhaps tells me not to do it, right? But noooooo, I'm a stubborn person. I didnt learn.
On the upside his eye is going to be just fine, and the RockBand drumstick that he got poked with is still in perfect working order.
Life is fun, and God is interesting, how he plans stuff like this.
Go team!
I'm starting to get excited about this fall at Compass Bible. I think it will be a great time to see the tech team expand and grow, and I'm also excited to see the refuge begin its on campus ministry at saddleback college. I have a huge desire to see Compass make a impact on our community.
It's looking like the past year (that's right, this weekend is my one year anniversary for being at Compass Bible Church!!!) has been a time where I have grown into the church, and begun to branch out to others who I might not otherwise know. I will admit it has been good being on staff, because it has forced me to interact with so many different people. I don't think I would have had this chance if I was just a grad student.
Your restless heart won't win 'cause you take but you don't give
And you'll keep moving on until you learn what love is
Don't give up on love and throw it all away
Don't give up on love and let it fall away
Don't give up on love
And you'll keep moving on until you learn what love is
Don't give up on love and throw it all away
Don't give up on love and let it fall away
Don't give up on love
-Sanctus Real
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